i need prayer about post summer; job and place to live. God's WILL be done.
Thursday, July 24, 2003
car update:
i dont want to talk about it anymore. can i just live for God?
Monday, July 21, 2003
God really gave me comfort this weekend. He spoke directly to me at Friday night large group (look for the sermon on 07/25/03 entitled 'The Process of Discerning God's Will'). we had special praise practice and He spoke to me again (hear 'Yielding' by Todd Proctor)! God is so good to me.
went home to chicago after summer league to pick up mom's car and attend chi-KO (thanks lauren!) meeting. i'm so excited to be serving two summer camps. what a way to finish a blessing summer! relief from school pressures and responsibilities, lots of ballin', good fun, good people, great summer small group 2003; God is good, all the time.
gonna be working with the juniors at TAF (coleading with Carrie) and juniors at chi-KO (coleading with Phil). pray for us and the kids!
i was mad tired after the meeting and trying to help elisa with her computer modem. got home and crashed. woke up randomly at 1:30am monday morning. i had work at 10am, so i had to go down while i could. between 2am and 4am when i got back, it was stormin' like crazy on I57. i thought i was gonna crash or die! lightening like none other, rain so hard you cant see and wind faster than some people drive (65mhp according to 91.7FM). i seriously thought i would get hit by lightening while i was getting blown off the road into a flash flood. God protected me. He has more in store for me than that.
work was mad tough, i was so tired. i missed morning prayer cuz i got to bed at 4:30am. evening meditation and morning prayer are key (see sermon on 07/13/03). met up with pastor joy for dinner at panera. very good, God breathed. then met up with justin. we just chilled at evo and talked til like 11pm. i'm excited for what God's doing in his life.
i think God would like me to stay down here at school. i am looking into getting a job, definitely praying through this. i feel that God wants me to grow, and i bloom when i'm here. i felt it friday night, but talking with p. joy, i think He confirmed it. He also whispered again about being discipled, having an older brother figure to live with. Joe Yun, my current summer roommate kept coming to mind. oh what a good witness he has been to me as a brother in Christ! though we do not have the most indepth conversations, or even much time together, he has, through his daily living, inspired me to be more like Jesus. i hear he's thinking about going to semenary (correction, he is taking classes in the fall). that totally makes sense to me. who better than one who loves and lives for our God? Joe already has 3 roommates for Vauder in the fall. i mentioned that i might be staying down and that i would like to have older brother roommates, and he mentioned out of the blue that Doile (sp?) has an interview in chicago and he may end up taking that job. Chucky might be next in line for that forth spot, but Joe is going to talk to the roomies to be sure about that. would it be weird to hope doile gets that job and chucky has people to live with? for some reason, i think God wants me to live with Joe, whether in the quad or our own double. i'm scared to bring that up, God is faithful, His works are secret. have faith Gill!
please pray for my future and the summer camps i'm serving at.
Monday, July 14, 2003
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my lease is almost up and i still dont know where i will be living. i have til Aug. 2 to decide. TAF starts for us counselors that afternoon. my lease ends in the middle of TAF so i'll have to move out by then. i may be serving at Chiko, lauren's infamous retreat. i still have to pray about that too. so what are my options for post summer? i can find a new apt and stay down in the UIUC area, hopefully have a job substitute teaching and helping out with King's Club. option 2 would be to live in Chicago, hopefully working in the CPS (chicago public schools), but i may not have a home in the suburbs, so i'd have to find an apt or crash somewhere. then there's LA. my mom wants to move out there in Aug., so after TAF and possibly Chiko, my fmaily would be in LA. what would i do in LA? i still feel my calling to serve my home church in Chicago, that and teaching are the only things i feel God wants me to pursue, but there are so many paths to follow.
just trust God, depend on Him and love Him more Gill.
welcome back to blogger!
listening to JEWEL - STANDING STILL (THIS WAY)
Cuttin' through the darkest night in my two headlights
Trying to keep it clear, but I'm losing it here to the twilight
There's a dead end to my left, there's a burning bush to my right
You aren't in sight, you aren't in sight
Do you want me, like I want you?
Or am I standing still, beneath the darkened sky?
Or am I standing still, with the scenery flying by?
Or am I standing still, out of the corner of my eye?
Was that you passing me by?
Mothers on the stoop, boys in souped-up coupes on this hot summer night
Between fight and flight is the blind man's sight and the choice that's right
I roll the window down, feel like I'm gonna drown in this strange town
Feel broken down, I feel broken down
Do you need me, like I need you?
Or am I standing still, beneath the darkened sky?
Or am I standing still, with the scenery flying by?
Or am I standing still, out of the corner of my eye?
Was that you passing me by?
Sweet sorrow is the call tomorrow
Sweet sorrow is the call tomorrow
Do you love me, like I love you?
Or am I standing still, beneath the darkened sky?
Or am I standing still, with the scenery flying by?
Or am I standing still, out of the corner of my eye?
Was that you passing me by?
Are you passing me by? (Passing me by)
Do you want me? (Passing me by)
Do you need me, like I need you too?
And do you want me, like I want you?
Are you passing me by?
