avoiding studying for chlth...i'm a legal bus driver now. no driving restrictions. i can drive an 86 passanger bus. cool huh? it's a lot different than driving my Z. all by God's grace. how's my driving? call me not...only squished 5 people, my bad! hahah, jp.

new music on my xanga. good beat, not so good lyrics. but you can find me in da club...

oh yeah, gots me a new cell phone and number. ask me!
new ibook screennames "ibboy81" and "igillchieu"

almost done with sick. just a tiny cough now. thanks to all the rest. my teachers are so understanding.things are going really well now. i have lots to do, but that's okay, God will provide.

King's Club is starting next week, if the weather permits. i'm gonna get to see all my kids! we are indoors this semester and it's gonna be huge. we're talking over 250 kids the first days and growing, YES! it's gonna rock!

Praise Night was this weekend. it was awesome. if you didnt go, shame on you! i had extra seats for you with me.

the chicago boys came down. it was good to have them over. i hope they didnt mind sleeping on the ground and all. i'm such a bad host. i didnt know what to do with them, and since i was still sick i couldnt take them anywhere. i hope they knew that.

wow, i havent been this sick in a while now. i was in bed from monday evening to wednesday morning (except a few hours of work i couldnt find a sub for). sometimes i wonder why we go through these things. how does being so sick you're bed ridden help in glorifying God? i'm probably still brain fried. i had a temp of 102 yesterday, and i felt a lot better then the previous days, but when i was thinking about that question i thought about Job. not that what we go through is remotely close to that. just reminds me of how God can use anything. and since i'm still really sick i'll leave it at that.

added music from FFX (found music from Esther's source). i donno anything about the game, i just wanted music for your enjoyment and it's pretty, and so are you!

added to my xanga too.

here's where to get FF midi's

even when i'm trying to live out life the way i want, God forgives me.

less than 30 min. after praying for reliance in Him and relief from suffering...my wisdom tooth pain is down to a blessing of a reminder of God's grace. it's like 1/5 the swoll and 1/100 the pain, i know it's there, but it's not giving me massive headaches and pains as much. praise God~! not that i have done great works or have been a blessing, but because i see God's grace poured down upon us.

this weekend was CFC retreat. God really used Pastor Dunbar to speak to my heart. the first night i was very challenged by His message on the life i live. why do i complain all the time when i know that the life i live is not mine, but His and He never said it would be easy? yet i still complain in my heart, which we all see pouring out in all places.

the next night i was encouraged by His message to me. although we continue to live the lives we do, there is hope. why? because it doesnt matter what we do on our own. He will use those He will use and God's kingdom will still come as it has already come. Jesus may be upon us anytime now. let us continue to press onward so that in knowing Him we may be used for His glory.

once again, God blessed me. at sunday morning worship service He spoke to me giving real applications that can be...applied. ah yes, ABEL 4, praise the LORD, stating the obvious!

what is my application? if you've reached this far, you are a great friend and may be willing to keep me accountable for this one: Matthew 18:22, 35.

my hope, by the grace of God:
to rely on God
to be humble
to live each day
to glorify Jesus

if i die, what makes me think the tides of the battle will change? the war is already won, the tide of the battle will only change here and now, on my knees.

wisdom tooth hurts, really really need to get that out
no cellie still
no airport card
not enough sleep
sick again?
behind in school work

i cant complain:
i got my ibook (mac laptop)
i got my RAM (fedex left it outside my apt door, good thing whoever stole my cellie didnt take that too)
had a good Bible study
going to CFC retreat, if only parts
have good friends
more fashionshow practices

6 and 6, life is even...oh wait, grace of God, life is good, even when we dont know all His plans for us.
persevere

i really dislike waiting for things...
cell phone - not even shipped yet
laptop - around campus, but not where i'm supposed to pick up (not with airport card - on backorder)
RAM to fix computer - somewhere close by
bedtime - too far away
weekend - way too far away
acceptance/rejections from grad school - yeah...

when did this become my rant page?

stop being so stubborn,
stop being so impatient,
stop chasing after the world,
and realize God will break me.